JASMINE IS FLYING IN FOR OUR WEDDING!!!! This is going to be one of the best days of my entire life....mark this one down in the books.

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Only 12 days till our wedding. How does one scream excitedly with words? Guess I could make a voicepost to give you the full affect? haha

Anyways, working from our townhouse is amazing...he is unfortunately gone during the day...but I guess even if he was here I wouldn't get to spend any time with him since I am working, so it all works out.

I need to do my thank you cards from the bridal shower at church...I am truly grateful for my gifts, I'm just lazy and finding it hard to sit down and do it. That's okay, I will do it very soon.

Time is going to fly by. Can you believe that I'm getting married next week? Not this Saturday, but next Saturday I am getting married. Hahahaha yesss! lol

Alright, I'm done now.

String of Thoughts, on Marriage.

I often run off 6 hours or less of sleep. I'm grateful for 2 things.

1. I am grateful that I am a morning person.
2. I am grateful that I love Brad enough to not allow my usual too-tired-to-be-nice attitude to take over at night when we are spending our time together.

We have company in all the time from out of town during the summer. I never realized it until this summer because I've never had anyone comment on it...I'm just so used to it that it doesn't even phase me. I think Brad enjoys how close all of my family is. Well I take that back, sort of. I think he enjoys it once he gets past the initial idea of it all. When he hears that company is coming in he kind of has one of those "oh geeze, more meet and greet..." attitudes. But then the company gets here and he sees that the atmosphere is laid back and relaxed and we just have a lot of laughs and THAT is when I see him come out of his shell and really start to be himself. I love watching how he is with people, he is so....great. I mean, I don't know how to describe it. He talks and laughs and tells stories and I love to watch him be the life of the party...it makes me so proud and I am more than happy to sit back quietly and let him take the lead.
You know how the Bible talks about a woman submitting to her husand? I know that is often a topic for discussion because, wow....that sure does seem like it gives the man the total upper hand and the woman has no voice what-so-ever. But what people fail to see is that the Bible also says for husbands to love their wives like Christ loved the church. We know Christ obviously loved the church because well, anyone remember that whole dying on the cross thing? Yeah. Not to mention....he made a covenant with Israel and even though they screwed up left and right and broke their side of the covenant, God continued to love them and take care of them. So really, if you ask me, the women get the easier task out of the two. I mean, my husband has to love me enough to want to die for me? And all I have to do in turn is submit to his authority? Which if you think about it, if your husband truly loves you, submitting to him isn't going to be difficult because he's not going to require anything of you that would cause you harm or too much discomfort...right?
Okay, basically what I am trying to say in a round about way (get to the point!!) is that I am so willing and happy to be coming underneath Brad's authority because it's a worthwile sacrifice. I'm lucky to be marrying someone who thinks like me when it comes to marriage and the commitment that we are entering into together. There are so many marriages that start out with the wrong mindset or the couple hasn't even discussed what eachother's role will be in the marriage and they end up failing miserably and ending in a divorce.
I realize that I am a pretty hardcore conservative when it comes to marriage. I am comfortable with that. I tend to be pretty liberal when it comes to issues that are not outright black and white. But I feel like marriage is a black and white issue (not in regards to race, you know what I mean...) with little-to-no gray area.
You know how "they" say that when women are pregnant they start nesting and getting prepared and it's au natural? I feel like I'm in my nesting period for marriage. I want to be ready for my husband, I want to be ready to take care of him and be there for him and for him to be confident that I am there for him and trust him.
23 days...I can't wait to be home.
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The Five Love Languages

The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman is a super awesome book. It's a christian based book and Gary Chapman is a christian, but the principles in the book apply to people period, regardless of religion. I would pretty much recommend it to anyone that likes to read. I know that personally it has helped with some personal struggles and answered a lot of questions. Definately recommended.
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I stole this from Valerie (makeapaperduck) whom I have known solely online for approx. 4 years now. It's so true, hopefully you will do it too.

You know how sometimes people on your friend's list post about stuffgoing on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when are they working THERE? Since when are they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you *should* already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place. Then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out :)

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I walked up the stairs and through the doorway, taking in the feeling and the anticipation. I sat down on our bed and looked around slowly, wanting to remember this feeling. I'm imagining how many times I'm going to sit down on this very same spot and look at these very same walls and take for granted the easy, comfortable feeling of home.
This is the bed that I am going to lay in with my husband every single night. These are the walls that I will look at every day, that will protect my husband and I from cold and rainy nights. That's the closet where our clothes will hang together. This is the room that will witness many a romantic night, where our children will be conceived, where we will whisper to eachother "I love you so much" while the other is sleeping soundly at 2am. These are the walls that will absorb arguments and heated conversations, words that neither of us meant to say.
These are OUR walls, this is OUR bed, this is OUR home.
And so I cried tears of happiness.

Last Hoorah

I don't know how much I'll be writing journal entries. My journaling is going to take a turn and I'm going to start making entries of what happened that particular day. Not many details, no thoughts or emotions involved, just an itemized list of the days activities. Brad and I are reading a book in marriage counseling and they suggest doing this so that at the end of the year when you reflect on the last year and are planning for the next year, you have something to go back and look at. They say to make a top ten of hightlights from that year...I'm definately looking forward to that. I will still journal somewhat, or at least try and do some writing...but I don't know how personal I will be making it or even if it IS personal, how often.
40 days till the wedding. Brad finishes class this week and will move into our townhouse this upcoming week sometime. I have family coming in this weekend and a bridal shower with the women at church. Time is flying by, even though I feel like not quick enough. Don't ask me why I'm wishing my time away...probably because I have so much to look forward to. I should be more nervous than I am, I should be like freaking out right about now because I'm about to commit the rest of my liveable life to one single person to take care of me and love me unconditionally and not get tired of me...talk about opening up your heart to someone and becoming vulnerable...
But I'm not nervous. I know Brad loves me and he actually WANTS to take care of me (holy crap, didn't know that was possible...) and even though he is a little bit nervous about this whole marriage thing, he's hanging in there and doing his absolute best to make me happy. Reading that back sounds like he's doing this unwillingly...but he's not. He truly is just as excited as me (okay, maybe not AS excited as me...because HELLO...but he is excited as well) and anticipating being with me in marriage and as a family.
I gave him his ring this weekend with the promise that I wrote out, he liked it and said I did a great job...I can't wait to see what he got on my rings.
Anyways, survey and then I'm peacin' out.

Oh yea, Brad got more done on his tattoo and I got my nose repeirced. He was going to surprise me, but he can't keep a secret...he is getting my infinity symbol tattoo on his other wrist :) Plus we are getting the hebrew symbol for marriage covenant...working on getting the correct symbol right now though so that we don't look like idiots. Brad just keeps getting better and better, he's my perfect match and I love him so much.
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